I'M SORRY DEAR.....

maafin gw ...
gw gak pernah bermaksud seburuk yang lu pikirin tentang gw..
apa yg gw lakuin kemaren...mungkin karena dorongan ketidak-relaan gw karna sikap lu yang berubah...
and I'm sorry for that...gw sudah melakukan kesalahan fatal..tapi gw beneran gak sengaja...[gimana gw harus meyakinkan ini ke lu?]
gw merasa tidak menjadi diri gw sendiri sejak gw ngerasa sikap lu berubah..
and I'm being weird just to got your attention...
dan jujur..gw jadi jijik ama diri gw sendiri...
feeling like I'm a looser...

what should I do.. to asking your forgiveness..???
untuk ketololan yang sudah gw lakukan...yg harus gw bayar mahal banget...hingga harus kehilangan lu..
beg you?? then I will...for every heartbeat..I beg you...

it's hurting me so much..
and I can't take it ...gw gak sanggup...don't do this to me..pleaseee
rasanya gak enak banget...
this week its so hard for me...
pretend like everything is in a it's place..act like nothing happend...
and had tried to tell myself that I'm fine...but I am not fine at all....

gw cuma pengen bisa ngobrol kayak dulu ama lu...
itu berarti banget buat gw...
can I have another chance?

thank you...
luv u always...